Day #6
Peace
Chest rattley near end of 2nd set of codes
Coughing - chesty
Right foot toes still a problem
also middle of right foot small amount of pain
sinus still clear - although right one a little runny by mid morning
Pictures with children
Icecream and m&M's $56
Mum and Dad's
squeamish
no energy - feeling like sitting
Dog over my clothes no problem- not panicking about it
Head not good after an hour in my parents house
itchy nape
Home - head getting worse, extremely sleepy
Glad of Ariana's help with dinner
Bed to watch DVD Harry Potter with the children - couldnt keep my eyes open
Through the night 2pm onwards - blocked right sinus - both sides full, coughing, leaking, quite weary and uncomfortable till daybreak.
Headachey
Must have dozed off as woke with a book idea in my head - perfect sex in a perfect marriage - virgins - ideas.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Day Five of My 12 Day Journey to Healing my Body
Day # 5
Joy
Sinuses clear
Intense pain tonight in right foot middle toe areas
I am more assertive
Confident in being who I am
Feeling encouraged by a loves one's attitude in helping me to around the house when guests are due - a very pressured situation - and then to help with the cleaning up after they were gone.
Feeling patient
More daring to be myself regardless of those around me and their thoughts.
This morning arthritis in right foot quite severe pain.
Weary to the point of extreme sleepiness if I sat down during the day
Feeling comfortable lying down and resting this afternoon.
Energy in short bursts to clean the house for guests tonight.
When arrived home at 1.28 - coughing through reminder of night.
Bedtime itchy lump below my sock line on my left leg.
More sure of myself today.
itchy nape.
Joy
Sinuses clear
Intense pain tonight in right foot middle toe areas
I am more assertive
Confident in being who I am
Feeling encouraged by a loves one's attitude in helping me to around the house when guests are due - a very pressured situation - and then to help with the cleaning up after they were gone.
Feeling patient
More daring to be myself regardless of those around me and their thoughts.
This morning arthritis in right foot quite severe pain.
Weary to the point of extreme sleepiness if I sat down during the day
Feeling comfortable lying down and resting this afternoon.
Energy in short bursts to clean the house for guests tonight.
When arrived home at 1.28 - coughing through reminder of night.
Bedtime itchy lump below my sock line on my left leg.
More sure of myself today.
itchy nape.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Day Four of My 12 Day Journey
Day #4
Love
Sharp pain right breast off and on today.
Sinuses remain clear.
In control of tears at Court hearing today.
Wanting to love and be loved by my son but not too disappointed when my needs were not met by him - even after I mentioned that we would be gone by tonight. He didn't reach for me and hug me goodbye, however, it didn't phase me today.
Extreme sleepiness when asleep and waking.
Was able to stay awake most of trip back home (500 miles) mainly to be alert for my husband who was driving through the night.
Driving rain - we pulled over at my suggestion of a potential hazard - and he took notice of me!!
There were none of the usual objections or just ignoring me.
Arthritis in right foot quite pronounced today.
No electrical activity in my brain today.
I have a craving for chocolate though.
Itchy eczema at back of neck really playing up today.
Love
Sharp pain right breast off and on today.
Sinuses remain clear.
In control of tears at Court hearing today.
Wanting to love and be loved by my son but not too disappointed when my needs were not met by him - even after I mentioned that we would be gone by tonight. He didn't reach for me and hug me goodbye, however, it didn't phase me today.
Extreme sleepiness when asleep and waking.
Was able to stay awake most of trip back home (500 miles) mainly to be alert for my husband who was driving through the night.
Driving rain - we pulled over at my suggestion of a potential hazard - and he took notice of me!!
There were none of the usual objections or just ignoring me.
Arthritis in right foot quite pronounced today.
No electrical activity in my brain today.
I have a craving for chocolate though.
Itchy eczema at back of neck really playing up today.
Day Three of My 12 Day journey
Day #3
Unhealthy Beliefs
Intense sharp pain in left right sides of my body in hip and tummy region.
Feeling the need to weep at sad memories, however, not prolonged.
Could talk about sadness and not break down.
Courage to speak up and tell the truth to my daughter.
Courage to say no to a request and not feel guilty about the "no" answer. e.g. - driving my loved ones to railway station. Especially when I was not feeling well enough to drive and felt it a dangerous situation warning me inside.
Unhealthy Beliefs
Intense sharp pain in left right sides of my body in hip and tummy region.
Feeling the need to weep at sad memories, however, not prolonged.
Could talk about sadness and not break down.
Courage to speak up and tell the truth to my daughter.
Courage to say no to a request and not feel guilty about the "no" answer. e.g. - driving my loved ones to railway station. Especially when I was not feeling well enough to drive and felt it a dangerous situation warning me inside.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Day Two of My 12 Day Journey
Day Two
Harmful Actions
Improvements being seen - like the ability to speak with those I love without feeling guilty about having my own opinion.
Awareness of unforgiveness thoughts towards those I love.
Morning activities - heightened to cope with 45 minute exercise on a paperun I have originally obtained so that I would get out of the house and get regular exercise twice a week.
Upon first awaking this morning from a deep sleep - feeling a deep need to keep sleeping - took several minutes maybe even half an hour to bring myself fully awake.
In the past I am awake after 4 hours sleep and ready to run through the day.
The best thing today I am feeling is having the courage to say things to those I am with; whereas previous to this day I have been very unwilling to say anything in fear of being judged as stupid or ignorant. Therefore I have spent a lot of my last few years in silence and only answering people in my head where I have felt safe to answer them.
Today I am not even feeling one ounce of guilt with my verbal responses.
Great progress.
Also today we spent travelling in the car for 500 miles and normally I would just sleep all the way as my mind would be bored in the silence. My husband is not keen on music or the radio and prefers to travel in silence.
Well today I did sleep a little, however, felt more alert and wanting to stay awake and make conversation and watch the scenery.
Great progress.
Harmful Actions
Improvements being seen - like the ability to speak with those I love without feeling guilty about having my own opinion.
Awareness of unforgiveness thoughts towards those I love.
Morning activities - heightened to cope with 45 minute exercise on a paperun I have originally obtained so that I would get out of the house and get regular exercise twice a week.
Upon first awaking this morning from a deep sleep - feeling a deep need to keep sleeping - took several minutes maybe even half an hour to bring myself fully awake.
In the past I am awake after 4 hours sleep and ready to run through the day.
The best thing today I am feeling is having the courage to say things to those I am with; whereas previous to this day I have been very unwilling to say anything in fear of being judged as stupid or ignorant. Therefore I have spent a lot of my last few years in silence and only answering people in my head where I have felt safe to answer them.
Today I am not even feeling one ounce of guilt with my verbal responses.
Great progress.
Also today we spent travelling in the car for 500 miles and normally I would just sleep all the way as my mind would be bored in the silence. My husband is not keen on music or the radio and prefers to travel in silence.
Well today I did sleep a little, however, felt more alert and wanting to stay awake and make conversation and watch the scenery.
Great progress.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Day one of my 12 day journey
Day #1
Unforgiveness
I went for a ride with my husband to do some errands which took most of the morning. I can't drive myself because of the disorientation I am feeling in my head with all of this electrical activity happening in there.
I had left my cell phone on the table and when I got home there was a message from an unknown caller's number. I rang them and discovered it was a local courier service enquiring as to when I would be home to have a parcel delivered to me. I got excited. The only parcel I was expecting was from the USA.
At 12:05 I was signing the courier delivery docket. At 12:08 I had unwrapped the package and examined everything and was starting into my Healing Code. Who cares about watching DVD instructions or reading manuals.
After performing the first set of codes twice I felt a peace like no other go through my entire body. After the 5th time I had done them I felt the electrical activity in my brain subside to a trickle. I can manage that!!!
After completing them I felt energised to the point where I went for a short walk down my street to deliver pamphlets - a job I have had for nearly 2 years to give me some exercise. Previous to this outing I had not gone outside much for more than a week because of the lack of energy and general feeling of not being well enough to do much.
The sunshine and fresh air was exhilarating.
By bedtime I was feeling an intense hunger in my tummy. Previous to this I had hardly been interested in food for nearly 4 weeks since the onset of my bronchitis and sinus infection. By this time my cough has disappeared although I am still treating my sinuses with a nasal rinse on a regular basis to clear my breathing passages especially at night.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Previous to Day one
Suffering from chronic depression, flu symptoms, recurring bronchitis, sinus infection, bladder infections, incontinence problems when I coughed, electrical activity in my brain, losing balance, lethargic attitude, inferiority complex, arthritis in old injuries in my right foot and ankle, financial failure, marriage on the brink of disaster, high blood pressure, hypoglycaemia, serious weight control mismanagement, chocolate cravings, constantly weeping, unable to stand up for myself - vulnerable and attracted to bullies, only JUST employed, losing interest in my looks and figure, low self esteem, broke as, gradually becoming agoraphobic, unable to pursue my singing hobby due to sore throat caused by the bronchial cough, intermittent pain in the right ear, afraid to drive myself around as feeling disorientated, feeling rejected by my children and husband, constantly tired, and much much more.
Amidst all of this despair I was linked to a website by a very good friend via email which I followed up and immediately brought the ebook to read. I was not keen on that persons experience of a particular type of lifestyle which I actually enjoy and have never had a problem with, however, there was another link that I followed up on through the original email which led to such a tremendous new concept that zinged with me that same night.
I couldn't afford the product, however, I could just afford the down payment so I stuck my neck out and ordered the Healing Code that same night.
Just since ordering the product and fretfully waiting for it to arrive at my doorstep I began to notice subtle changes to my desperate situation. However, I will let you read on as I go through this journey.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)