Day #11
Humility
6.30am I am feeling great today - up and about early
Energetic
Determined to conquer my latest challenge to get traffic to my site with no distractions today
7.15am - burst into tears
needed to sit
very emotional
Feeling sorry for many things that are happening to people I love around me
12 noon did to much at once and got light headed
itchey spot on my right nipple areola area annoying today off and on.
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Friday, October 9, 2009
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Day Four of My 12 Day Journey
Day #4
Love
Sharp pain right breast off and on today.
Sinuses remain clear.
In control of tears at Court hearing today.
Wanting to love and be loved by my son but not too disappointed when my needs were not met by him - even after I mentioned that we would be gone by tonight. He didn't reach for me and hug me goodbye, however, it didn't phase me today.
Extreme sleepiness when asleep and waking.
Was able to stay awake most of trip back home (500 miles) mainly to be alert for my husband who was driving through the night.
Driving rain - we pulled over at my suggestion of a potential hazard - and he took notice of me!!
There were none of the usual objections or just ignoring me.
Arthritis in right foot quite pronounced today.
No electrical activity in my brain today.
I have a craving for chocolate though.
Itchy eczema at back of neck really playing up today.
Love
Sharp pain right breast off and on today.
Sinuses remain clear.
In control of tears at Court hearing today.
Wanting to love and be loved by my son but not too disappointed when my needs were not met by him - even after I mentioned that we would be gone by tonight. He didn't reach for me and hug me goodbye, however, it didn't phase me today.
Extreme sleepiness when asleep and waking.
Was able to stay awake most of trip back home (500 miles) mainly to be alert for my husband who was driving through the night.
Driving rain - we pulled over at my suggestion of a potential hazard - and he took notice of me!!
There were none of the usual objections or just ignoring me.
Arthritis in right foot quite pronounced today.
No electrical activity in my brain today.
I have a craving for chocolate though.
Itchy eczema at back of neck really playing up today.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Day Two of My 12 Day Journey
Day Two
Harmful Actions
Improvements being seen - like the ability to speak with those I love without feeling guilty about having my own opinion.
Awareness of unforgiveness thoughts towards those I love.
Morning activities - heightened to cope with 45 minute exercise on a paperun I have originally obtained so that I would get out of the house and get regular exercise twice a week.
Upon first awaking this morning from a deep sleep - feeling a deep need to keep sleeping - took several minutes maybe even half an hour to bring myself fully awake.
In the past I am awake after 4 hours sleep and ready to run through the day.
The best thing today I am feeling is having the courage to say things to those I am with; whereas previous to this day I have been very unwilling to say anything in fear of being judged as stupid or ignorant. Therefore I have spent a lot of my last few years in silence and only answering people in my head where I have felt safe to answer them.
Today I am not even feeling one ounce of guilt with my verbal responses.
Great progress.
Also today we spent travelling in the car for 500 miles and normally I would just sleep all the way as my mind would be bored in the silence. My husband is not keen on music or the radio and prefers to travel in silence.
Well today I did sleep a little, however, felt more alert and wanting to stay awake and make conversation and watch the scenery.
Great progress.
Harmful Actions
Improvements being seen - like the ability to speak with those I love without feeling guilty about having my own opinion.
Awareness of unforgiveness thoughts towards those I love.
Morning activities - heightened to cope with 45 minute exercise on a paperun I have originally obtained so that I would get out of the house and get regular exercise twice a week.
Upon first awaking this morning from a deep sleep - feeling a deep need to keep sleeping - took several minutes maybe even half an hour to bring myself fully awake.
In the past I am awake after 4 hours sleep and ready to run through the day.
The best thing today I am feeling is having the courage to say things to those I am with; whereas previous to this day I have been very unwilling to say anything in fear of being judged as stupid or ignorant. Therefore I have spent a lot of my last few years in silence and only answering people in my head where I have felt safe to answer them.
Today I am not even feeling one ounce of guilt with my verbal responses.
Great progress.
Also today we spent travelling in the car for 500 miles and normally I would just sleep all the way as my mind would be bored in the silence. My husband is not keen on music or the radio and prefers to travel in silence.
Well today I did sleep a little, however, felt more alert and wanting to stay awake and make conversation and watch the scenery.
Great progress.
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